This week has been filled with so many highs and very low, lows that I have been on an emotional roller-coaster. The good news first.
We've received all the necessary approvals to buy the house and are set to close next Thursday. We are so excited!! We also got the appraisal back yesterday and the house appraised for $40k over what we are paying for it. Which makes me feel much better about the whole deal! Now if only we could sell our house in Colorado and not have to worry about that any longer.
The bad news.
My dog, Kaya, is very, very sick. I fear we have reached the beginning of the end and I am having a really tough time facing that. God has placed in me the ultimate responsibility of deciding when it's time to let her go and I fear, actually I know, I am completely incapable of being objective about it. I know all the arguments. She's suffering and can no longer be the dog she once was. Her quality of life has significantly diminished, she's in pain and she'll go to a better place, etc. etc. But it's not quite so cut and dried when it's your pet and that pet has been the anchor in your life for 10 years. Kaya was with me when I was still a young, naive, single girl. She traveled with me to my new life in California. She was with me when I met my husband, she was my rock while Thomas was deployed to Iraq, and there when we moved and started another new life in Colorado. She was there when we bought our first home and filled it with children. I don't remember what life was like without her and I don't want to envision a future without her.
Whatever it is that is making her sick came on really suddenly. One day she's fine, the next she can't stand up and is whining in pain. She screamed last night when we tried to move her. The vet has recommended several tests to determine what's going on. They cost a lot of money. So far we've done 2 and we are currently awaiting the results from the 2nd test. I don't know that we should continue to run test after test. Especially sinceI am still holding on to hope that this is something treatable and I won't have to make any end-of-life decisions for Kaya. I am praying for some conclusion to this so I can move forward and know which route to take and be at peace with it.
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Warm thoughts for you, your family and especially Kaya. It's so very hard when your pup is sick. I lost my childhood dog a month after Lily was born. It was a hard day and I still cry for him at times. Hugs to you!
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